f i r s t s
First best friend: bethany provost
First real kiss: ...um...never...X_X
First break-up: none (never had a bf/gf)
First screen name: cowchick
First self purchased album: urm... don't really remember. maybe Aqua.
First pets: dancer w. dog

First piercing/tattoo: none... lookin' @ nose ring

First credit card: haven't had one...but i have a pre-pay
First true love: urm...*laughs*...steph knows all 'bout this.
First enemy: this fat kid in my swim class when i was nine. but even that wasn't really that bad...
First big trip: dunno. i've flown from AK to MA and back at least six times...i've had my own frequent flier account since before i was 2.
First music you remember hearing in your house: my mom singing lullabies

l a s t s
Last cigarette: don't smoke

Last car ride: i'm in the car right now. on a fourteen fucking hour car ride. though i hit eighteen going to maine.
Last good cry: hmm. this i don't remember. prolly last january, some melt-down of something. or november. i really don't remember.
Last library book checked out: um...cranberry queens...i have too many checked out.
Last movie seen: thanks for smoking with my da, bro, and grandpa. ok, it was weird...i was pissed 'cause my bro got to see an R movie when he was 13, and i didn't get to go until i was 17. even then. i think this was my first one @ a movie theatre. but he's just a lucky bastard. ^_^
Last beverage drank: water. i have three bottles in front of me.
Last food consumed: veggie burger from burger king.
Last crush: um...ok. LONG STORY. but i did see a guy i thought i was over a little bit ago. that was kind of weird. as, um, i guess i'm not. steph knows about this. a lot. we whine together in a + p. what's great is that i am very angsty, yet have not used my hormones for gain. i just...argh...*kicks wall*
Last phone call: joe
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: blue nikes. that i refuse to un-tie most of the time. >_<
Last item bought: tees from colby.

Last annoyance: my computer deleting all my games. like solitaire. which is why i am typing this.
Last time yelled at: um...hmm...my brother got pissed earlier. but he gave me part of his milkshake, so it's all good.

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? ...no answer. you know who you are. ok?
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no, but we shall see, my dear watson

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? tj maxx, half-price books, camille la vie, goodwill, random places...hobby lobby, target...um...basically anything.
02. any tattoos or piercings? non. though i am going to get my nose done at some point.

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? no
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? suave coconut shampoo, suave orange creme conditioner. but really, anything goes. (*hums song*)
03. what are you most scared of? myself
04. what are you listening to right now? al franken's lying liars and the lies they tell...it's an audiobook in the car.
05. where do you want to get married? hmm. if i do get married, possibly on cape cod.

06. how many buddies are online right now? dunno. i can't get a wireless bit right now.
07. what would you change about yourself? HAHAHAHAHA...*snorts*...i wish that i would be more assertive in certain things. that i would acknowledge the fact that yes, i do exist, and yes, i am human, and yes, humans do certain things.

f a v o r i t e s
01. color: i dress in blue a lot. but i really like any colors. really. i do. ^_^
02. food: ramen, miso, lobster (yes, i'm a fucking pescotarian...A TYPE OF VEGETARIAN, thank you very much. not a separate thing. the elitist vegs think not, but people who know things--i.e., doctors--say different), bread, salad with ranch and sesame seeds.
03. boys' names: arthur, pasterelli, cebastian, tristan

04. girls' names: avery wianno, christelle, caroline, dubai
05. subjects in school: all, really (but 10th grade english)
06. animals: flamingos, sea otters, people (occasionally)
07. sports: swimming, sailing, soccer, running...that one sport that involves tight pants and bats and balls...hmm...BASEBALL, perhaps? ^_^
08. perfume: don't wear, but i like the flowery stuff. that's light. and i like lemongrass sage-ish smells.
09. cologne: i don't know, but i know what the good stuff smells like ^_^ (and yes, i'll tell you if yours is good...)

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? when i was baby sitting... NOT LIKE THAT!!...he ran all over the place and peed all over the lawn. oi vey.
02. smoked? no...it makes me nauseous.
03. bungee jumped? not yet...^_^
04. made yourself throw up? *cough*...my meds actually make me puke. unfortunately.
05. skinny dipped? not yet...but if you want to...
06: been in love? perhaps
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? i don't remember doing so...
08. pictured your crush naked? plead the fifth (and that's for any of them)
09. actually seen your crush naked? hahaha...no.
10. cried when someone died? occasionally
11. lied? yeah...but i try not to.
12. fallen for your best friend? yup
13. been rejected? for what? asking someone out, once. sort of. he said, "we'll see", and i finally realized what a fucking waste of my life it had all been. so i backed off. and yeah, i have been rejected a few times for dances.
14. rejected someone? yeah...i felt bad about it. but i really didn't like them. and they stalked me, for goodness sake!
15. used someone? no.
16. done something you regret? hasn't everyone? but i am still living with myself, so it wasn't that bad.

c u r r e n t
clothes: socks, jeans, tank, tee, sweat-shirt, watch.
music: none. al franken.
make-up: none
annoyance: i need to go to driver's ed
smell: the car. my stuffed dog.

favorite artist: i cannot choose just one.
cd in player: none
dvd in player: a dvd from colby

color of toenails: toenail-colored

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: my brother...tag-team slap in the gas station store.

hugged: my grandma
you imed: jerod

a r e | y o u
understanding: sure.
open-minded: sometimes...but i think that there are some things that i won't tolerate. i stick to my guns. and such. though i will listen to people, i do snap when people don't tolerate. which sounds a bit stupid. but i think you get the idea. if not...*slap*
arrogant: not usually
insecure: perhaps
interesting: when you are interested in me
hungry: not right now
smart: yeah, i am. and i do admit it. but i'm over it.
moody: you have no idea. i'm suicidal. occasionally i get pms-y, as well.
hardworking: when i want to be. but i am really hard-working for a while, then i have to do something else. i can accomplish unbelievable amounts in very short breaks in time, or i can do nothing for days.
organized: sam knows the answer to this. (hint: NO)
healthy: yup...vegetarian, exercise regularly, don't drink a lot of soda or eat a lot of fried food.
shy: i turn red. hardcore. X_X and sometimes around boys. and large amounts of people.
attractive: n/a
bored easily: i can just go inside my head and think for hours
responsible: with what?
obsessed: i am a stalker w/ mi amiga lizzy g...but not usually. though i'm sure steph would think otherwise, due to my a + p chats about certain code-named people.
angry: hahaa. i can get v. pissed
sad: not right now...ok, a little. the government pisses me off. the fact that people just do whatever the fuck they want...like karl rove sending out fake letters for the dems when he was 17.
disappointed: fuck yes. i am going to run for president. i am. i am tired of the lies. i wish that everyone would just sit and own up. yeah, it's hard. but how else are we to grow? and is one's pride more important than the lives of the thousands of military? or the people who just scream...the political pundits? i'm tired of that. i wish that people would tell the truth. i mean, fine, show that you are the better candidate. but please. don't use those fucking polls that plant doubts in people's minds (a la karl rove and calls about mccain's "illegetimate child" and insanity--both bald-faced lies). also, el salvador shows that illegal abortions DO NOT WORK. AND NO ONE LOOKS AT THIS. NO ONE. WHY?! WOMEN ARE SENT TO JAIL FOR 30 YEARS BECAUSE THEY MIGHT HAVE HAD AN ABORTION. their uteruses are removed and used as evidence. don't believe me? check out the new york times magazine for this week. i have a copy. i'll show you.
happy: sure...ok, also sad, because i'm leaving MA, but i also get to go to the metric concert tomorrow.
hyper: not right now
trusting: sometimes
talkative: too much..> >_<
legal: for what? *^_^*

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: any killing is wrong.
slap: a large amount of politicians and talk-show hosts, kids at khs who think they know everything, manny ramierez (ok, that's an inside joke), people who have let the genocides go so far for so long.
get high with: ...no one...because i don't want to...

look like: the girl from noi albanoi, audrey tatou
talk to offline: basically anyone, but especially will, sam, steph, em-cee...
talk to online: see above

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: COKE
flowers or candy: depends. but actually, if someone gave me something else, something creative, than i would be verrrrrrrrrrrry receptive.
tall or short: for what? ^_^ ...no, really, i have had crushes on tall guys, and short guys...i have tall friends and short friends...and so on and so forth.

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: tired
all i need is: love, love...

love is: a many-splendored thing...hahaha...love is not that brief chemical reaction i have read about in national geographic. it's having a best friend that you care deeply about, it's wishing for nothing and everything, it's what ties me to many people to all.
i dream about: lots of things. sometimes it's really fucked up, like nightmare-ish. but meh. it happens.
what do you notice first: about what? about the opposite sex? i bet that's it. if so, what that person says to me the first few minutes, and how that compares to our most recent conversation. well, that's not really "first", but oooooooooooooh well.

last person you danced with: hmm...i don't remember. next time i see someone, i'll have a dance break.
who makes you laugh the most: hmm...will, my brother, sam...a lot of people make me laugh.
who makes you smile: bean, steph when she goes off. i lurve you...
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: osama bin laden. no, kidding. but really. we're not discussing this.
who do you have a crush on: HAHAHA...according to steph, anything that walks. really, though, i'm not going to go into this.
who has a crush on you: ...um...i seriously doubt anyone would have a crush on me. who isn't a stalker.

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: NO but i did check my emails twenty times in one day because some people don't check emails and i was being a spazoid about prom
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: when my vagina is bleeding. then i quickly take that back.
wish you were younger: yes + no...i am the youngest in my grade, so it gets kind of weird sometimes.

n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: hmm...once, really. i guess. it was more of a LEAD ME ON AND THEN PUSH ME AWAY WHEN I ASK YOU TO BE MY BOYFRIEND.
of hearts i have broken: one. in sixth grade. he stalked me. it was fucking weird.
of guys i've kissed: 0
of girls i've kissed: 0
of continents i have lived on: 1
of tight friends: we be all tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight
of cds i own: more than i should...but still...i enjoy music...^_^
of scars on body: more than one, less than fifteen million.